I was wearing a kind of cloak at some point here, years ago.
The reason for that was that my outdoor area could be seen from afar in the woods. The committee did not want my restraints to be visible.

In hindsight, it was overcautious but then all this was still new.
The material of the cloak was fabric and I was like a nun, or like a woman under Islam. My head was also covered.
I hated it.

But it's true that it would be easier to put on a cloak like this ...

already mere thought of rubber makes me freeze mentally...

I'm feeling a little uncomfortable now.
I have neoprene pants and a shirt under my normal clothes.
Neoprene is also under the corset and thus the corset now feels tighter than normal. On the other hand, neoprene slightly softens the feel of a hard corset so maybe that’s a good thing.

Neoprene is actually a nice material, it’s soft and warm. The clothes I am wearing now are tightly tailored and thus very tight, too tight in my opinion.
I’m like under a lot of pressure all the time, it’s actually an exciting feeling. Maybe a deep-sea diver feels like this ... I don't know.
This outfit also includes mittens, socks and a hood but I don’t have them now.

This is basically a normal day for me but I have been informed that I can’t work tomorrow.
I think it means only one thing. I’m facing something new again, maybe it’s also an O-session.
I have to admit, I’m a little excited. I treat all of this now as some kind of warm-up before the climax that I can achieve tomorrow!

heh ... i hope i'm right!

My job of the day is done.

The routine work had a lot to do but not too much. Basically, this was a normal weekend. Lots of sports photos and some news material.
However, I was so busy that I had no outdoor activities today. It didn’t bother me because it rained outside almost all day.

I still have some thing in the visitor room, maybe even dinner there but now I’m waiting to go to the bathroom.

Basically neoprene is not a bad material to wear

I smiled when I saw Kim Kardashian’s MET Gala style

Is this going to be a new fashion? if it comes then i have been a pioneer

Sometimes there is talk of the length of my imprisonment. It comes up in private discussions but also here in the forum.
Now a new forum member mentioned this, he thought about what my life is like when I am 60 years old, for example ...
That’s when I’ve been in captivity for almost 40 years.

I also discussed the matter with my friend Nina. I have often discussed the same topic with her.

I have always, even at the beginning of this imprisonment, thought that this is a lifelong solution. I have had difficult times getting used to this life but now I think I am used and adapted well.
Of course, there are still difficult moments. But aren’t there hard times in everyone’s life?

Adaptation has been helped by strict rules and discipline, it may be hard to believe an outsider.
If I had the opportunity to influence and “negotiate” things, this system would not work. The end result would be confusion and perhaps disaster.

In the beginning, I was happy with the great sense of security that imprisonment gives me. I didn’t have to worry about the outside world from which I had very bad experiences.
Time may have changed some things but I’m still happy about that same feeling. At the same time, routines and discipline have become the foundation of my life.

I am treated well and respectfully. I get pleasure according to the rules. My health is well taken care of. I don’t have to worry about anything as long as I’m cooperative.
I know a lot of people around the world who do not have these basics in order.

I have lost a lot if compared to "normal life" I have to accept it like all prisoners.
But I’ve also got a lot of things that others can’t even dream of.

What happens when I am 60 years old? No one can know it for sure but I think that I can predict my future more certain than the outside part people

I have heard of that line of thought. Nina talked to me lightly about it sometimes. That was when she was a student and I was her "research subject."
Now we are more ordinary friends (so I like to think)
I don’t know, maybe she wants to comment on this, we’ll discuss this too!

It feels a little strange to treat my own life as if it were a research project so I may not start analyzing this in more detail. I need to read more about it.

new restraints innovation

I said earlier that my cell is fitted with a steel wire system whose idea is that once the wire is attached to my waist, behind the back, the wire can be shortened from outside the cell so that it forces me to move against the Cell wall.
It has been tried and it works well. I still wonder why I need it but the Committee said it is an experiment for wider use. Like I'm an experimenter here too.

Now the steel wire system has been changed so that my wrists have cuffs also inside the cell.
Between my wrists is a wire that runs behind my back, through the corset’s o-rings at the waist level.
I can use my hands almost normally, the wire prevents me from moving a little even though it is very annoying all the time, it requires getting used to.
When the wall wire is attached behind my back to the wire between my wrists, not the waist wire, when tightening the wire from the outside, it forces my hands to the waist first, against the O-rings at the waist.
The end result is that the prisoner has to stand stuck in Cell's wall, her hands firmly attached to her body. The guard can then open the doors and step into the cell.

The whole is a workable solution and it increases the possibility of controlling a difficult prisoner. It increases the security of the guards, I understand that.
It is also easy to adapt to practice.

This is currently my reality although it amuses me, I am not a difficult prisoner but still it is being tried here for me.

Good morning and nice Sunday to everyone

Yesterday’s visit was not what I expected. The visitor was the person who had made my chair for the visit.
Final adjustments and settings were now made.

It was basically exciting but I was still disappointed because I was expecting to meet someone I knew.
I wore a hood the whole time he was there. I couldn’t see him and he couldn’t recognize me. That was, in principle, understandable because he is not a member of the Committee or close to me.
I sat in the chair and he attached and finished the attachment points to the frame of the chair so that they now fit perfectly with my body and corset.

It seemed strange that someone outside touch me to adjust my restraints. I understood that he was doing the agreed work and I knew the Committee member and the guard were close to me all the time. I felt safe all the time.

Now everything is ready and I can expect to get a "real" guest sometime

The chairs are very different.

The visit chair is very "sophisticated" compared to another chair. It’s also heavy-duty, it has wheels underneath so it can be moved.
All seat parts and armrests are beautifully upholstered in leather. The steel frame of the chair is shiny metal, chromed, I think.
The seat and backrest are shaped to fit me, a big person couldn’t even sit in it. It is a very personal chair.
The backrest has anchor points that now fit perfectly to the level of the D-rings on my corset. The anchor points are behind the seat so I couldn’t see their mechanics, so I can’t tell you more about them.
I am tightly fastened to the chair at my waist level, the backrest and corset fit together perfectly and there is no room for maneuver.
The top of the corset is also attached to the chair, below the neck but has the possibility of small movements.

The upper arms are attached to the chair so that they cannot be moved. Same is done for the arms below the elbow, there are two attachment points for the straps.
The tension of the straps can be adjusted so that it is comfortable to sit in.
Now in the experiment I also had mittens, they were firmly attached to my wrists, they held my fingers tightly together, mittens continued and narrowed after my fingers and ended up with a strap that could attach the armrest to the front. Thus, my fingers and wrists are fully locked. But this is a possible option, not always in use, I understood.

Since the intention is that I am normally dressed while sitting in a chair, the thigh is not tied separately (because of the long skirt).
At the front of the seat, there is a belt that locks my feet in place.
Below is a footrest that is flat but has a transverse steel bar that stays in the gap in front of the heel of my boots.
Because I can’t lift my legs, a steel bar restricts my movement, in addition to leg irons.

The cover of the chair has two parts. Large "box-like" front and almost straight section at the back. the top has a round opening that fits my neck.
The cover is somehow attached to the chair frame and closed / locked from behind (I don’t know exactly how).
The "box" is beautifully crafted, it descends in front of me and looks good.
As mentioned, it is upholstered in black leather and has shiny steel at the edges.
Even the neck opening is upholstered and rounded beautifully, it has no practical significance as it hits my steel collar but it is a beautiful and thoughtful detail. I appreciate it.

The end result is that when I sit in my chair, I can be fastened in many ways and no one can know there are restraints punishing tightly or comfortably loose.
The visitor does not need to know it or worry. The visitor can only see my head / face.

Already a mere box locks me in, other restraints are just an addition.

After a long time I have been trying to continue writing my "CaptiveGirl Lifestory".
Things are still progressing very slowly. It’s nice to know that some ones are reading them!

Of course, it would be better if I remembered and wrote in more detail in advance, even if only one chapter at a time, but I like to do it that way.

Maybe then sometime when I’m old and the whole story is complete, someone will do it and write it better according to my script

It was beautiful weather here for the weekend. I only went outside for a short time because I had a busy job almost all the time, there was a WRC Rally in Finland and I saw a lot of pictures from there pictures of cars and drivers are still bustling in my eyes!

In my work opposites sometimes show up. During the week I dealt with a lot of pictures on the subject of climate anxiety and protesters who were against all the polluting activities and then over the weekend I saw a lot of happy pictures of motorsports. I also saw a lot of pictures of Finland's beautiful and green nature (for which the rally fit well).   

Thank you for sending the sun here to me! Today there is still beautiful air here and I wish I could enjoy the outdoors and smell the refreshing autumn air!

It’s nice to note that you’re following things that are close to me here. I feel how it connects us

You have to send a lot of sun here because the weather forecast says it will rain a lot from tomorrow onwards...