The suit is not like a sleeping bag. It has sleeves and also separate parts for the legs. So I understand, I haven’t seen the suit yet.

I am always firmly locked at night, inside my cell.
So I don’t think if I’m out at night, it would be lighter or easier.

I'm thinking about steel parts. If they are on top of the suit, they should be insulated to prevent cold from entering the suit. Maybe the wide leather straps under the steel would work here.
I don’t know how my steel collar, for example, stays warm against my skin. However, it is warm all the time, inside the suit.

This idea is very exciting.
In principle, nothing would change, except external conditions.
That would be a big challenge, I could say it would be an awesome adventure for me (also a little scary!)

I have no outdoor activities today or in the days to come. I don’t know the reason for that but I’m trying to fix it by thinking about this maybe future challenge!

You know my thoughts well (I've said it before)

Strict restraints and controls mean safety to me. In special situations, it is increasingly important.

It is said that even a timid and fearful dog calms down on a tight leash, especially after training. It gets used to it and learned to trust.
...I may not want to compare myself to a dog but maybe the principle is the same.

The forum has been quiet for a long time, I'm sorry about that.

Surprisingly, I was offered a role in the sports news image group during the Olympics. It is a small photo agency, but still ...
It's a great honor for me even though I understand that the biggest reason for that is that I can be on call early in the morning too
My working hours start before 04:00  in the morning due to time difference.
Luckily, my guards are a sports fan, they’ve also had to change their rhythm of the day.

My work is interesting and I have an important role to play in it, it feels good.
I don't know all the athletes but there are writing editors for that

I became a little sad outdoors today.
It is warm here and it has rained water, my snow / ice prison is about to be destroyed. If the weather doesn’t get colder quickly, I can’t get any more experience with it.
I know that the Committee and the guards worked hard to make it and it will soon be lost.
I would have liked more experiences of it, I hope all is not lost yet!

But now I have to say good night to everyone ... funny that the clock is here at 4pm and I’m going to sleep soon!

Happy new week everyone!

For me could say that that time after the Olympics
My job was surprisingly hard, it involved intense work and a lot of new things and learning. I am grateful and proud to be trusted. I probably coped reasonably well with my job!

I find that my life, my work, and the momentary changes in it have sparked thoughts in my followers and forum members. I have received personal messages and there is also a discussion in the forum.
I have to say that I would like more open discussion in public here in the forum.
At the moment, I mostly only get personal mail (sometimes very personal) but I would like more people and thoughts to join the open discussion.

I understand Mr "Real Restraints" concern about whether my job is suitable for a prisoner like me.
I can assure you that my job was just to process, edit, save and share photos. It did not involve any verbal / written information.
The Committee had thought about the same thing, too, but they decided to trust me because they thought this short job would have a big impact on my mental life (they were right, I think).
My co-workers and other members of the Team knew nothing about my life ... and I don’t know anything about them. We just did our job.

I occasionally discuss in private “Real Restraints” and “Mr Captivity” and I know their thoughts on my life and how they would like changes to it.
I encourage them (and others) to share their thoughts more publicly and thus have more discussion here in the forum.

Thanks also to "correcthorsebatterystaple", It's great that you are setting up to defend me and my potential rights.
I appreciate you and always want to hear your opinion too.

Everyone has the right to have their say here (including other thoughts, dreams and wishes)!

The perfect winter wonderland!

It has been snowing heavily outside for two days, less so today.
My outdoor area is full of snow, the only place I can be was on my ice / snow cell.
It's kind of funny. I seem to be outside but I am completely isolated inside the snow and ice.
Now only an hour a day but that's enough.
When I am moved there I can see the perfect snowy light outside, it has captured the whole yard and even the forest what I can see behind the fence.
This is a really special winter. I wish I could still spend the night (or two) inside an icy cell!

Nice that my life in captivity arouses thoughts and discussion.

I can’t get much involved in this topic but I read and “listen” with interest to opinions and discussion. As well as the Committee.

I cannot fully open publicly the written agreement with the Committee which I have  approved.
There are many things involved in the details of my imprisonment and confinement.
It is a "package" with many elements included. It gives me satisfaction, but there are also things that the Committee demands to be followed.
I can’t just choose things that please me. I have to submit to all matters relating to the contract.

I am interested, even dependent, on maximum security and the peace provided by restrictions. That is a clear thing.
I also need certain things to get pleasures. Those things may even be called masochistic needs by some.

The committee can give me the things I need but they also need to get the things they need.
The Committee (I do not specify members) wishes to emphasize imprisonment, restraint, discipline and order. For them, planning and rules are very important.
It is important for them to subjugate me completely under their control, especially physically. They are very interested in the long-term effects of physical bondage (as well as on a mental level).
So we have an agreement that satisfies all parties and thus unites us.
I am committed to accepting all the discipline, the rules, even the pain and torture they choose to give me.

I think our deal will provide a “Win-Win” style solution.
One would think that in the contract I will give much more than they but I fully accept it.
The Committee has provided considerable financial resources to comply with the agreement.
I give myself and much of my income.

Finally, I must say that after this my long imprisonment (which, however, is just beginning), many things in the original treaty have changed and adapted.
I have a lot of “freedoms” in my work, I have this forum and with it the people who are all important to me.

According to the agreement, my life could be much tighter, I am happy that the committee will give me opportunities to live my work as well as connect online.
For all this, I am willing to pay even more than now.

Finally ... of course I would use only best parts of the contract if I could. I would live like a princess in my locked castle (as I have sometimes been told).
But the reality is different. Everyone must be satisfied in order to maintain balance.

I am sorry that my panic reaction to the happens in Ukraine shocked some.

It touches me deeply and still scares me.
Ukraine is very far from me but I am shocked that I knew something like this was going to happen.
I don't know world politics well, but I know that Finland is very important to Russia, so I thought Russia was trying something similar here. Perhaps Ukraine was, in their view, even more important, the first step.

As I have told my LifeStory, I knew about the actions and preparations of the Russians.

I know that there are a lot of Russians in work in Finland who are, in fact, soldiers trained by the Russian army.
They infiltrate society and are ready for sabotage and terror.
"Officially" they are laborers, truck drivers, construction workers, etc. They are also at a higher level in society.
This is the case in all European countries (including those outside Europe).
Finland is especially important to the Russians because Finland is not a member of NATO and we have a particularly long border with Russia.
They want to take over Finland for historical reasons as well.

The happens of last week affect me greatly.
I have announced that I will take a break from part of my job.

I have also discussed with the Committee that I want to feel particularly secure and controlled now.
It means some change in my rhythm of my day and my life.
The old wisdom for me is that as I receive more discipline and stronger restraints, I will focus only on myself and perhaps forget the evil of the world for a moment.

Today is a celebration day on the forum diary.
60,000 views ... that's pretty much  I think.

Some members and my followers have faithfully visited to see if there is anything new there. Some have visited the forum and noticed that nothing is happening, so they don’t click on the diary to open, so not all visits are visible.

I am sorry that I am isolated from everything. It’s my own will even though I’m sad for the forum.

I live a very quiet and very well secured life. the situation has stabilized so that I will work again but I will not do anything that is related to the pictures of Ukrainian events or world politics. It's all too much for me now.
I still follow the news very closely, some say I follow it too closely. It greatly affects my feelings.

I have agreed with the Committee that 50% of my earnings will be sent to support aid to Ukraine. The rest goes into my daily living here. It is not enough to cover my expenses but the Committee understands and supports me. Maybe my money can save some children and their mothers.

I know the money I give is very small, even insignificant but it motivates me.
But in this way, my work is relevant here, otherwise I would have no motivation to deal with “useless” sports, fashion and celebrity photos, and so on.