My O-sessions continue as normal, now even at more precisely defined intervals.
In my opinion, it is a good thing that there is stability in it. It's very stressful when I don't know when something will happen and when it won't...

I don't know why I haven't mentioned them in my diary... it's part of my normal life, maybe I didn't think that my followers would be interested in it.
Now that I think more carefully, I realize that of course some followers want to hear about them too. I've been too focused on my own thoughts and haven't thought about it.

I will write about them in the future, some of you may have noticed that I have already increased the publication of pictures

It's happening again.

The authorities want to ask me additional questions about things from more than ten years ago. Since it is about "important information", I cannot answer in writing or even via online video.
I have to show up at the time set by them to the place where the questions will be asked (I call it interrogation).

The authorities do not understand my problem. They set a time when I have to show up, they told me in the email conversation.
I replied that I cannot promise to arrive at the time they set because things are not in my hands and things require special arrangements.
There is a contradiction in the matter that the authorities do not understand: I am basically a "free woman", but I cannot decide how and where I move and be.

The authorities wonder if I am under the influence of someone who dictates what I say.
That is why they want me to be there in person and to answer their questions alone, in the presence of witnesses.

It is very stressful for me, especially since I have already announced that I have told all possible things.

They try to calm me down by telling me that it is possible to hide everything I say for several decades, but that doesn't calm me down. They say that the information I provide only "supplements" their research and information. They are not used directly for anything.

anyway i'm very stressed now (again)

The original practice, which has been in practice for a long time, was that I have an O-Session once a month, always when the moon changes on a nearby weekend.
That practice was established and very satisfying, I had no chance of satisfaction between sessions and that was ok with me. It took a lot of getting used to, but I learned the rhythm and anticipation, as well as the recovery from the previous session.

The sessions could be long, even more than two days (the whole weekend), of course there were breaks in between. The session can also be short and effective.
The idea was that the session is always different, it includes restraint, pain, sometimes even torture, frustration and many other surprising things that I cannot know in advance.
At the end, of course, there is great satisfaction and recovery... and then waiting for a new session.

This system, practice, broke down at some point and I was no longer completely sure when the next session would be.
There was also a time when the sessions were used to reward me, and conversely, skipping them punished me.
The sessions were not tied to the planned schedule.

It's very stressful and that's why I've said that I like routines and that I know what to expect.

But still, the idea of being treated like a cow to be milked, according to the schedule, does not appeal to me.

My O-sessions are indeed a big and significant exception from all the institutional routine that I normally live.
I experience it as a break from everything and an adventure in all its forms. That's why the thought of turning it into the same routine every time terrifies me.

The current sessions are usually attended by two members of the Committee. They decide how things go.
I think that they often have some kind of initial idea/theme which then takes shape during the session. They rarely have a perfect plan, so I think that my actions during the session can also affect it, I don't know.

I have experience with chastity belts in the past, their constant use. Today, using a belt can be part of waiting for a session, etc., but it is not a continuous daily routine.

Usually, it's enough for the Committee to know that since they don't want me to touch myself, I won't.
In addition, my wearing a long leather skirt etc. and the use of hand restraints, especially under elevated high security routines, prevent it effectively.

The idea of a chastity belt appeals to many, but I can tell you that it is not pleasant.
You can feel it all the time, it limits movement. Sitting is difficult, even impossible, etc

It is a very impractical device that constantly announces its existence and mission.
I admit that using it in some situation is sexually stimulating, that is its main purpose.

I know that even among my followers there are people who would like to lock me in the belt, I also know a member of the Committee who strongly thinks so, but I hope that it will not happen.

However, I am not in a position to make a decision about this.

I can understand that couple.
It's great if jointly decided issues can be maintained in public as well.
It's brave that she can wear her gag in public and show commitment to their lifestyle.

I too would like to show my commitment publicly, but according to the Committee, the world is not ready for that

It's winter here, snow on the ground. It came surprisingly fast and I was immediately in trouble.
I slipped when I was walking outside, or actually I slipped on the first step when I was going outside to exercise in my daily time.
It was a bit scary but luckily my guard did his job and held me up, I didn't fall.

Falling with restraints can be painful and cause injuries. We don't want them.
Basically, the outdoor terrace had been cleared of snow, but it was still cold and the surface was slippery. I should have remembered that. The fault was not that the yard work was done poorly.
The guard said that it wouldn't happen if the yard concrete was heated, but that won't happen. It is pointless to make expensive heating for one prisoner, he said.
He was right, of course. I need to be more careful, that's all. I have to remember that my boots are made more for indoor use.

I have been told that I should stand more, it is good for blood circulation and muscle function. That's why I have sessions where I stand in the middle of my cell, it's very boring with effective restraints.

Your suggestion of ceiling mounted springs combined with some sort of Harness sounds fun!
I could bounce in it like a baby learning to walk!

I think my physical training stopped because it took up too much of the guards' time.
My daily rhythm is such that most of the time I am alone, isolated.
The guards visit me after the morning routine about every 3 hours. During the day, there is one longer time with the guard because of outdoor activities, the other times are shorter (food, toilet, etc.). The evening routine then takes more time.

The easiest thing for the guards is to make sure that I don't move around much and thus don't cause problems when I'm alone. Effective restraining works in it.

...in any case, I was outside today as well, the Terrace was in good and safe condition and I walked back and forth many times.
The weather was nice, not too cold but not too humid either.

I'm sorry that my diary has been quiet. I've been isolated from the internet for a while, so I've had time to think about things in peace.

It's been a good time. At first I had a four (4) day session which was a strict combination of sexual activity according to my restrictions and practices. Of course, I also had rest periods, firmly attached. Many hard orgasms that tired me so much that I had to rest isolated for the rest of the time. My body and physique also require rest now.
There is also time to think about my life.

The current time has been very stressful for me. The war in Europe affects me a lot because of my previous experiences. I can't say why but I can't get over it either.

Fortunately, I have friends with whom I can talk about my feelings, like Nina who listens to me and she even knows how to talk with me therapeutically.
It's important that I have people around who understand me and don't try to change my thoughts because of my life.

I have a Committee that understands me and they "help" me stay in line by keeping the conditions and rules tight at all times no matter what happens. I can trust that my life will remain secure and stable.

I have my family who understand the rules of my life and don't try to break them.
I have a friend of mine who sometimes visits me. She considers my chained life as normal, but she also has her own family and her own life, I understand that.

My new friend is my legal assistant who is very interested in my limited life.She says she gets more and more interested in it the more she researches and thinks about my position.
It's nice to talk to her, she says that I've taught her a lot of things about life

It is difficult to say anything about the members of the committee. I understand that the relationship between me and the members of the Committee must be distant and official.
The practice has become such that Ilona almost always takes care of my personal meetings face to face. Other members stay at a distance, except during Orgasm sessions.
I can see two members of the Committee very rarely.

My relationship with Ilona is complicated.
She treats me very sensibly and caringly, but at the same time she can be very strict. She makes sure that everything is handled according to the agreed rules and practices.
She can "read" my feelings, but he always behaves according to her position.
She is a good leader even though she says that the Committee does not have a real leader.

guards are....guards,
They do what the Committee wants and orders. It's just a job for them. A job that gives them the comforts of a nice apartment and some kind of salary. I don't know more about it, but I know that they are relatively happy with their lives.
For them, I'm just a way to earn comforts in their lives, that's why they do as the Committee wants.

So... here are my thoughts on my life right now

Now I want to rest. I need a lot of physical rest after last week's session, luckily there are bed restraints and a soft, warm bed.

I just wanted to let you know that everything is fine, I'll get back to you when the time is right.

Take care of yourselves!

Christmas time is near... and 2022 will soon be over. This has not been a good year for me.

The committee has thought that now is a good time to focus on thinking. That's why it's good (in their opinion) that my life is minimized and made simple.

I feel bad that I haven't had the chance to tell about my life on a daily basis recently... although there isn't even much new to tell about it.

I don't know what will happen next year, I'm not a fortune teller
In any case, my imprisonment and surveillance will continue at a high security level until the war in Europe is over.
I have taken the position that the situation will remain the same for many years... and who can say when the war has really ended?

My situation is not bad, although some are worried about my state of mind.
I'm not depressed, I have educated and good friends who watch over me and talk to me about difficult things, etc.
I have a strict diet that keeps me healthy and my exercise will change, so it has been said.

So I am safe, healthy and it will continue for a long time. I'm not going anywhere.

I also try to improve my connection and activity with my followers and friends as soon as it is possible (promise in the new year).

This won't be my last update this year, I just can't promise when I'll be able to write again.

I will get a Christmas present

I told you about two months ago about a couple, they wanted to give me leather clothes made of orange leather. It includes a long blazer and a tight, knee-length leather skirt and some kind of vest.
The conversation ended with them wanting to come and give me the clothes themselves (and get to know my living environment). The committee could not allow it.

Now the situation has changed so that they want to give me those clothes without any demands, as a gift.
Those clothes have already been delivered to the Committee/Ilona, she will check them and modify them to be suitable for my use!

I found out about the gift in advance because the donors told me about it in an email. I am very excited about this thing!
I can very rarely get new clothes. Of course, my underwear (and corsets) are always new, but the outer clothes have often been worn by Ilona or someone else.

These "donation clothes" have never been worn, only fitted when purchased...and now they are being tailored for me!

The color of the clothes, bright orange, is maybe wild, but I don't think it's a problem. I'm a prisoner and that's kind of the color of a prisoner, even though I'm here alone.
Usually my leather clothes are black so this is a big difference.
I remember when sometime in the past my clothes had stripes on the sides. They were ugly to me even though I understood their purpose, they told about my prisoner status at the first glance. ..of course the same thing is done by my restraints and other chains.

Maybe I'm now more ready for visible prison dressing!