My year 2023 did not start very well. I've got some sort of flu virus.
Of course it's not unusual, I can get it like everyone else in the world. I was just used to the idea that I am protected from this too

I was "patient in bed" for three days, that time would have seemed long without my friends and especially my new friend. They took care of me so that I didn't have to be alone for long.
The new person in my life is a legal assistant. Her name is Erin and we have quickly become friends.
We are from completely different worlds, Erin has studied and created her career, as she says, she has "lived in her own bubble".
She has had a good and maybe "easy life" because she has wealthy parents who have planned a good life for her and also made it possible.
She ended up as my paralegal "by accident", ordered by the boss and now she is very interested in my lifestyle (and maybe me too). She has researched and read everything about me.

Erin wanted to be with me when I was sick in bed. It was very beautiful and tender to me.
The committee gave permission for my cage bed to be moved to the meeting room and Erin was able to spend time on the couch, she even slept on it.
Committee created exact boundaries and rules so that she had to stay away from my cage, a safety limit of maybe 1.5 meters was marked on the floor with tape. The matter was monitored with the help of security cameras.
I was in bed, inside the cage. I was tied to the bed with restraints that are intended for long-term use.
The binding system is great and multi-adjustable, so it can also enable controlled movement in bed, if so desired, so I can, for example, wipe my nose.
Erin totally accepts me despite the limitations of my life, it feels great. She doesn't think they're strange.. special, yes. She says they don't change me as a person and that's fine.

We also discussed our sex life.
We basically have in common that we don't have much experience with "ordinary, normal sex".
Erin says that she has had two sexual relations which are very ordinary. It means having sex once a month after a shower, in a dark room, under a blanket. in the basic position.
My experience with normal sex is a few drunk or otherwise hasty experiments with an inexperienced young man. That's all. I have also tried sex with a woman as a teenager.
For me, sex means orgasms related to bondage, pain and submission. In principle, it is practically present all the time, although it is rarely realized definitively.

We also discussed that I can't choose my friends and partners, but for some reason the people close to me are divided in such a way that the men in my current life dominate me a lot. I mean the members of the Committee who otherwise stay at a distance. The three of them (+guard).
There are four women in my life, I don't count my mother or my friend from childhood.
Two of the women are members of the Committee whom I respect and value. They take care of me by following the rules (+ female guard).
The remaining two have become my friends, as it were, through the "back door".
I value their friendship very much, they treat me and my life very normally and that feels good.

I don't know if you are interested in my writings like this, but I still wanted to say it.

Happy New Year 2023 everyone!

Glad you found my forum!
it's nice to hear that you were able to read my writings.

You are also very polite I know my English is not good enough to write well.

My routines do not include regular physical punishment (if you don't think about restraint).
Physical pain and things like that are often associated with my sessions but it's completely different from my normal practices.

My life is based on discipline, routine and rules. It is safe because I trust that the rules bind all parties.
I'm not "in principle" forced, I submit to them voluntarily, so I don't need to be punished. I know how I have to behave.

I'll try to find the story you recommend, you can also link it to the "Writings" section of the Forum...

I like all kinds of topics, ordinary "normal life topics" but also topics that deal with my life or related special features and fetishes. Everything is fine, I like the conversation

My diet is carefully planned for my individual life.
It means relatively small portions that are nevertheless nutritious and healthy.
During the day, I eat small portions every 3-4 hours. It's because I wear a corset every day and large doses cause problems. As well as food with large pieces or otherwise difficult for the stomach and intestines to process.
I think that my doses can be compared to hospital doses for the elderly, etc. It also means that I don't have any great taste experiences, just healthy regular food.
I'm not a vegan and I don't have any special requirements, so I'm quite easy to feed

Your idea of eating as a form of punishment (no tastes, etc.) is interesting and even understandable.
Similarly, the idea that the knowledge that others eat tasty food but the prisoner gets something tasteless fits the idea of strengthening the feeling of being a prisoner.
I understand the idea and at the same time state that fortunately I am not punished in this way.

This weekend is not going as I had hoped either.

I still feel weak and a little sick. On top of everything, my period started I'm not at my best then.
...so the Orgasm Session has been cancelled

I tried on my new leather skirt and vest yesterday. I'm a bad person now but I'm complaining about that too, it didn't fully meet my expectations.
The clothes are kind of beautiful and especially nice to touch, but for example the skirt has some additions that limit me more.
The skirt is pencil-shaped, as I already said, it ends a little below the knees.
The special thing about the skirt is that it is reinforced at the bottom so that I cannot spread my legs, it forces my knees to be close together. The distance between the knees can be about 15 cm!
It makes everything I do more difficult...sitting, walking, standing, etc.
Only now I notice how easy and practical my old clothes are!

Also my visit rules have been changed/revised.

I can still receive one visitor per month, for one hour. The visit always requires the Committee's approval. At least one security guard or Committee member will be present during this time.

The change is that I can also receive guests belonging to the "inner circle". This means, for example, Nina and Erin. They can visit once a week, the length of the visit is not set.
Visiting rules and regulations (restraints, distance and safety) are in effect, but the supervisor is not necessarily physically present all the time.
Of course, Committee members can visit whenever they want

Are you surprised that I can be sick too?
It's true that I'm rarely sick, but apparently it's not impossible.

My life is carefully planned and on schedule, but sometimes there can be changes. Lately there has been too much instability and surprises, it has stressed me out and maybe affected my menstrual cycle.
However, it is part of normal life and at the same time tells me that I am a physically healthy and functional person

My normal long leather skirt is not thigh tight, it's a nice straight line skirt that covers the legs but still gave me freedom to move my thighs.
The new, orange skirt is tighter and I feel its presence all the time.
It also increases the work of the guards because it is difficult to put on/take off.
I don't know... maybe it would be better if the skirt had a zipper in the back from top to bottom. Thus, the skirt could be opened completely and put on me. The ends of the zipper could be locked if that is important.

I am restrained and secured under the rules whenever I have visitors. There is a strictly defined safety distance between me and the guest, which no one can break under any circumstances.

Erin is my legal assistant who has also become my friend   

of course you didn't offend me, it was just a harmless response from me.

Lately I have done less work online and therefore my activity on the forum is also less. That's all 
It will get better in the future, I think

Terrible things have happened here. Not here in my environment but in this country.

It has been revealed that the guards of a private security company have been systematically abusing weak peoples in large railway stations and other public places.

The guards have targeted people who they think have drugs etc. That is, weak people who cannot defend themselves. They have taken the victim to a place where there are no witnesses or cameras. They have abused the victims and taken drugs and other valuables from them.
The casual viewer has thought that they are doing their job, but it has not been so, they are violent thieves.
The victims have not reported because they are weak and ashamed. Thus, the abusers were able to continue.The most special thing is that when the guards confiscated the drugs, they were not given to the police.
THE GUARDS TOOK THEM FOR THEIR OWN USE!
This activity has been going on for a very long time. This greatly erodes the esteem of the guards.

The worst happened last weekend in a large shopping center.

The guards stopped a 35-year-old woman about whom some kind of complaint had been made. The guards forced the woman to the ground and held her, there were four guards.
...the end result was that the woman who was crying for help died in their hands.

This is very shocking.

The matter has been investigated and one expert is of the opinion that it is dangerous to lie on your stomach because it can make breathing difficult... this expert did not take into account the fact that four big and strong guards were lying on top of the woman at the same time, forcing her to the floor.

One of my followers had read the same and is now worried that it is dangerous for me to sleep on my stomach while locked in bed.

It's nice that you think about my safety, but I'm not worried.
When I'm locked in bed on my stomach, I can still move a little, I can change my position as needed, limited but still.
Besides, I'm relatively light, I don't have big breasts that can make it difficult to breathe... and I certainly don't have four big guards sitting on top of me!
In addition, my sleeping varies, I can say that nowadays I sleep more on my back, locked in bed restraints.

Training news

I have now been doing guided physical training for over a month.
It's still horrible and I hate it.

I had physical tests over the weekend and I was surprised that their results already showed a little progress.
There was a small but clear improvement in the abdominal muscle and back muscle test, and the legs can also do more simple exercises.

Training is still not easy even though Erin claims that eventually I will start to like it and even want more... I still doubt it!

It was nice that after the test I got a reward, a short and quick Orgasm session!

A new addition to my training will be that I get a treadmill here.
It means that I have to walk every morning and evening, as if I have a commute to work on foot before starting the work day.
The "walking distance" is hopefully not long because my restraints make it difficult and slow.