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Dear Miisa,
I am glad that you will be able to continue to share your life by writing in the forum. I am also glad that the Committee has set rules and boundaries to protect you from outside threats. Many of us are concerned about goings on in the world but if endanger yourself by speaking out when you are in such a vulnerable position, it is good that they added extra protection.
Thank you for all that you share.
Respctfully,
Dear Miisa,
I am glad that you will be able to continue to share your life by writing in the forum. I am also glad that the Committee has set rules and boundaries to protect you from outside threats. Many of us are concerned about goings on in the world but if endanger yourself by speaking out when you are in such a vulnerable position, it is good that they added extra protection.
Thank you for all that you share.Respctfully,
If your system affects your manners, maybe I need to try it.
Seeing it makes me realize how judgemental I sound, jfc.
It's nice that you've considered the legality of my living arrangements.
I'm absolutely certain that all guardianship and other matters have been checked many times for me.
Do.you find that invasive?
I keep waffling on whether I'm overstepping or not with so many questions. Normally I'd err on the side of respecting privacy, but then I ask myself why no one else is remotely curious about the real world problems inherant in a basic extreme dynamic, multiplied by a million.
That, and you're a very effective writer. The way you capture a scenario, the discriptions of various restraints surrounding them, and most importantly (for me) your enotional responses and your committee and associates relations to you. I won't lie, I've been alarmed more then once, but then you write about such tender care and consideration of your feelings.. usually. 
I keep imagining if it was me in your shoes. It's a submissives fantasy come true.
That said, I see no one else really acting this way. They treat it as normal, or keep their own thoughts private.
What, then, is the point of public exposure though? What did your committee hope would happen, if not to attract an intense interest in how you live?
Do.you find that invasive?
I keep waffling on whether I'm overstepping or not with so many questions. Normally I'd err on the side of respecting privacy, but then I ask myself why no one else is remotely curious about the real world problems inherant in a basic extreme dynamic, multiplied by a million.
That, and you're a very effective writer. The way you capture a scenario, the discriptions of various restraints surrounding them, and most importantly (for me) your enotional responses and your committee and associates relations to you. I won't lie, I've been alarmed more then once, but then you write about such tender care and consideration of your feelings.. usually.
I keep imagining if it was me in your shoes. It's a submissives fantasy come true.
That said, I see no one else really acting this way. They treat it as normal, or keep their own thoughts private.
What, then, is the point of public exposure though? What did your committee hope would happen, if not to attract an intense interest in how you live?
You don't cross the line with your questions, it's refreshing to hear your thoughts.
There are other people who do that too but they want to keep it private, I don't really know why.
My "right" to write publicly is written into our contract and I stick to it, considering the prison restrictions.
Writing started sometime in the early part of the last decade when I wanted to get "public approval" for my life choices. At the same time, it probably gave me some emotional security in the beginning, so I still existed even though I was locked out of sight.
Nowadays, my connections are relatively few, due to the fact that I and my daily life are perhaps boring to follow. However, I want to stay true and not add imaginary parts to my day.
More public discussion here would be nice, but it's nice that at least someone notices that I exist now and then
Dear Miisa,
I think a lot of people notice that you exist. I am not sure why more do not post more often. I will try to do better.
Your story is an inspiration and an ideal to be reached for my many, I think, even if some don't understand how difficult it is to do what you do. I am glad you are willing to share with the community. Thank you. It is goodto know that writing about what you do is important enough to you to have it written into your contract.
Respectfully,
705
Last edited by 705 (2025-05-07 15:32:45)
This is a post in another topic, I'll share it here too.
In my opinion, "eroticism" is very far from my environment.
However, it is great that some have reached my mental landscape.
I get good mood and peace from my ascetic state and routines.
Someone once compared my life to the life of a religious nun, a nun who has consecrated her life to serve something great or even to atone for the sins committed by someone else.
My motives are a great need for a sense of security and a love of restraint and bondage. That's it, no greater meaning.
Limited life gives me the opportunity to enjoy the little things that other people don't even notice.
I notice the arrival of summer when I go outside, every day is a little different but a busy person doesn't even notice that.
I also enjoy the little changes that I can sometimes get, for example now a new tea flavor. A small thing that has a big meaning in life that has become institutionalized.
I'm looking forward to the coming weekend because that's when I'll meet my friends here again.
I think Nina and Erin are my friends, they've promised to organize some kind of "summer party" here.
Ilona is apparently also involved. I'm getting some "new" clothes that Ilona has promised to give me. Maybe we can do some kind of fashion show here!
I'd also like manicures and pedicures but maybe that's asking too much this time
Dear Miisa,
I see and understand the value and, epspecially the peacefulness, that comes from a simple, controlled life with enforced structure. I am very happy that you have been able to achieve this to the degree that you have.
I hope the upcoming weekend is a wonderful as you expect it will be. I will keep my fingers crossed for you that your friends are able to provide a manicure and pedicure in addition to the joy of their compnay.
Respectfully,
705
I got a message from Ilona.
She had read my diary update, she wanted to tell me that I shouldn't expect too much from the weekend meeting.
Ilona, Nina and Erin are coming here for a visit but there won't be any real "summer party".
...from my writing she got the impression that I was expecting some special party.
I didn't mean it like that, I'm anyway very happy that I can meet these people, even without the prisoner's code of conduct, as girlfriends, I hope
I get you.
If you're with people you like, then it's a party. 😁
Miisa should talk to the ISKCON Hare Krsnas about a monastic, controlled, peaceful life.
Miisa should talk to the ISKCON Hare Krsnas about a monastic, controlled, peaceful life.
I find it the height of.irony when a "counter-culture" movement criticises the dominant dogma while trying to push a dogma of its own. Everyone does this. EVERYONE.
All the falicy on display, "No true Scottsman", "Authority", crushing any dissent or internal divisions, you name it.
My personal view is that outside of conditions of harm (Strict interpretations, simply existing and swaying public discourse is not harm), your inner boundaries are deeply personal, and not something I or anyone else gets to challenge.
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