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Dear Miisa,
I am glad that you will be able to continue to share your life by writing in the forum. I am also glad that the Committee has set rules and boundaries to protect you from outside threats. Many of us are concerned about goings on in the world but if endanger yourself by speaking out when you are in such a vulnerable position, it is good that they added extra protection.
Thank you for all that you share.
Respctfully,
Dear Miisa,
I am glad that you will be able to continue to share your life by writing in the forum. I am also glad that the Committee has set rules and boundaries to protect you from outside threats. Many of us are concerned about goings on in the world but if endanger yourself by speaking out when you are in such a vulnerable position, it is good that they added extra protection.
Thank you for all that you share.Respctfully,
If your system affects your manners, maybe I need to try it.
Seeing it makes me realize how judgemental I sound, jfc.
It's nice that you've considered the legality of my living arrangements.
I'm absolutely certain that all guardianship and other matters have been checked many times for me.
Do.you find that invasive?
I keep waffling on whether I'm overstepping or not with so many questions. Normally I'd err on the side of respecting privacy, but then I ask myself why no one else is remotely curious about the real world problems inherant in a basic extreme dynamic, multiplied by a million.
That, and you're a very effective writer. The way you capture a scenario, the discriptions of various restraints surrounding them, and most importantly (for me) your enotional responses and your committee and associates relations to you. I won't lie, I've been alarmed more then once, but then you write about such tender care and consideration of your feelings.. usually. 
I keep imagining if it was me in your shoes. It's a submissives fantasy come true.
That said, I see no one else really acting this way. They treat it as normal, or keep their own thoughts private.
What, then, is the point of public exposure though? What did your committee hope would happen, if not to attract an intense interest in how you live?
Do.you find that invasive?
I keep waffling on whether I'm overstepping or not with so many questions. Normally I'd err on the side of respecting privacy, but then I ask myself why no one else is remotely curious about the real world problems inherant in a basic extreme dynamic, multiplied by a million.
That, and you're a very effective writer. The way you capture a scenario, the discriptions of various restraints surrounding them, and most importantly (for me) your enotional responses and your committee and associates relations to you. I won't lie, I've been alarmed more then once, but then you write about such tender care and consideration of your feelings.. usually.
I keep imagining if it was me in your shoes. It's a submissives fantasy come true.
That said, I see no one else really acting this way. They treat it as normal, or keep their own thoughts private.
What, then, is the point of public exposure though? What did your committee hope would happen, if not to attract an intense interest in how you live?
You don't cross the line with your questions, it's refreshing to hear your thoughts.
There are other people who do that too but they want to keep it private, I don't really know why.
My "right" to write publicly is written into our contract and I stick to it, considering the prison restrictions.
Writing started sometime in the early part of the last decade when I wanted to get "public approval" for my life choices. At the same time, it probably gave me some emotional security in the beginning, so I still existed even though I was locked out of sight.
Nowadays, my connections are relatively few, due to the fact that I and my daily life are perhaps boring to follow. However, I want to stay true and not add imaginary parts to my day.
More public discussion here would be nice, but it's nice that at least someone notices that I exist now and then
Dear Miisa,
I think a lot of people notice that you exist. I am not sure why more do not post more often. I will try to do better.
Your story is an inspiration and an ideal to be reached for my many, I think, even if some don't understand how difficult it is to do what you do. I am glad you are willing to share with the community. Thank you. It is goodto know that writing about what you do is important enough to you to have it written into your contract.
Respectfully,
705
Last edited by 705 (2025-05-07 15:32:45)
This is a post in another topic, I'll share it here too.
In my opinion, "eroticism" is very far from my environment.
However, it is great that some have reached my mental landscape.
I get good mood and peace from my ascetic state and routines.
Someone once compared my life to the life of a religious nun, a nun who has consecrated her life to serve something great or even to atone for the sins committed by someone else.
My motives are a great need for a sense of security and a love of restraint and bondage. That's it, no greater meaning.
Limited life gives me the opportunity to enjoy the little things that other people don't even notice.
I notice the arrival of summer when I go outside, every day is a little different but a busy person doesn't even notice that.
I also enjoy the little changes that I can sometimes get, for example now a new tea flavor. A small thing that has a big meaning in life that has become institutionalized.
I'm looking forward to the coming weekend because that's when I'll meet my friends here again.
I think Nina and Erin are my friends, they've promised to organize some kind of "summer party" here.
Ilona is apparently also involved. I'm getting some "new" clothes that Ilona has promised to give me. Maybe we can do some kind of fashion show here!
I'd also like manicures and pedicures but maybe that's asking too much this time
Dear Miisa,
I see and understand the value and, epspecially the peacefulness, that comes from a simple, controlled life with enforced structure. I am very happy that you have been able to achieve this to the degree that you have.
I hope the upcoming weekend is a wonderful as you expect it will be. I will keep my fingers crossed for you that your friends are able to provide a manicure and pedicure in addition to the joy of their compnay.
Respectfully,
705
I got a message from Ilona.
She had read my diary update, she wanted to tell me that I shouldn't expect too much from the weekend meeting.
Ilona, Nina and Erin are coming here for a visit but there won't be any real "summer party".
...from my writing she got the impression that I was expecting some special party.
I didn't mean it like that, I'm anyway very happy that I can meet these people, even without the prisoner's code of conduct, as girlfriends, I hope
I get you.
If you're with people you like, then it's a party. 😁
Miisa should talk to the ISKCON Hare Krsnas about a monastic, controlled, peaceful life.
Miisa should talk to the ISKCON Hare Krsnas about a monastic, controlled, peaceful life.
I find it the height of.irony when a "counter-culture" movement criticises the dominant dogma while trying to push a dogma of its own. Everyone does this. EVERYONE.
All the falicy on display, "No true Scottsman", "Authority", crushing any dissent or internal divisions, you name it.
My personal view is that outside of conditions of harm (Strict interpretations, simply existing and swaying public discourse is not harm), your inner boundaries are deeply personal, and not something I or anyone else gets to challenge.
My condolences on Finland’s loss to Norway in the European women's football [soccer] tournament on Sunday.
Respectfully Submitted,
Renegade Spirit
Last edited by RenegadeSpirit (2025-07-07 05:40:32)
Hello everyone, I hope your summer has been good.
I'm having a bit of a problem here due to the summer plans of the Committee members/guards.
It's a problem every summer but for some reason it's felt especially hard now. It means reduced activities, just like the whole country due to the shrinking economy, here the reason is different though.
Summer is still going on so I'm still staying pretty quiet here, I just wanted to let you know that everything is fine with me here
Oh, and now that I remember, I have written a story that a friend of mine created at his request.
It is based on his thoughts, I have just "put the words on paper".
It may have a slightly different approach to this theme.
The first, short parts can be found in my "writings" area under the name "Visitor in Super Max Sec prison"
I can tell member Johny91 that there is some fiction in that story... maybe.
Read it if you want, you can also comment on the beginning of the story. There are many more parts to the story coming.
August!
It's great that the summer vacation is over, the guards are back and routines are slowly returning to normal.
This has been a long and difficult summer for me, maybe the hardest of all!
But I survived this too, now all I hope for is that autumn arrives and my normal life here can continue!
I have to say that I have missed my friends, supporters and followers.
Thanks to those who have sent me messages, I haven't even been able to reply to everyone but I will do so soon!
It's great that you're back!
We've been talking to a few of your followers privately and we've been concerned. You may not know that we have a small community that "follows and monitors" the happens of your life. It works like this: community members write me private messages and I share them privately. Not everyone wants to discuss publicly here... But we still exist here
Before June, you were in a happy mood and were looking forward to your future meeting with the women you were close to, then something happened and you disappeared.
It is good to know that you are back and are okay. Many of us were worried about you. I hope your life will return to your normal and it will be a good autumn for you.
It's great that you're back!
We've been talking to a few of your followers privately and we've been concerned. You may not know that we have a small community that "follows and monitors" the happens of your life. It works like this: community members write me private messages and I share them privately. Not everyone wants to discuss publicly here... But we still exist here
Before June, you were in a happy mood and were looking forward to your future meeting with the women you were close to, then something happened and you disappeared.
...I didn't know about that kind of "private community" that follows and monitors my life.
That sounds special, I'm impressed that I'm being thought of and noticed in this way!
Before summer I thought it was going to be a great time but it turned out differently, I suddenly found myself completely isolated
Summer time has been practiced here for many years but it's only getting worse. Maybe that's the intention, I don't know.
The good news is that I'm getting some work back so maybe all is not lost!
Hello Miisa,
It's nice to know that you got through the difficult part of the summer and you're still planning to write and share your experiences with our community. While I don't want to bother you with private messages, I'm looking here from time to time and always interested in updates from you. In particular, I hope that you will eventually find a safe way and inspiration to continue your Lifestory.
All the best from Doom Turtle!
It's been two weeks since we got back to our normal routine here and I can tell you that it feels good!
Familiar guards, even if they're not my friends, make everything feel good and "homey" again.
I think that we can try to adjust the temporary arrangements for summer time in the coming years so that everything runs better!
In previous summers, as well as this summer, many things are useless adjustments and thinking when the Committee members try to maintain the routine.
Now everyone wants to do things "their own way" and it only confuses things here and also in my head!
I know that some had good intentions in giving me a change in my routine practices but I don't think so.
...if you live under the same routine for 10-11 months then sudden changes are not necessarily good 
My work is getting better. There is no big rush now so I can do things calmly and thoughtfully.
The weather is now changing to a normal autumn and I think that is great!
Last summer was way too hot for me, there were several days when I could not go outside due to excessive heat.
I suggested that I could go outside with few clothes... or even naked but that didn't go well with the guards at the time. They wanted to stick to my dress code and restraints.
In principle I understand that but it would still have been nice
About writing.... I've written a little story with my "penpal" Visitor in Super Max Sec prison
Writing is fun when I don't have to remember my own experiences, now I'm kind of an outsider in the story.
My "life story" will continue when I find the right inspiration.
you are so correct there Miisa with routine, it is so comforting and any changes certainly throw things out of sync
It's the beginning of September, summer is almost over even though the weather is warm now.
I have to say that I'm a bit confused and down right now. I think I've lost one important friend, I haven't heard from Nina all summer.
Erin is also distant, I can sometimes hear when she's here somewhere, in her own space. I've also seen her a few times but she doesn't contact me like she used to.
Something has happened but I don't know what.
Ilona's summer vacation is also over and everything is working as normal here. Safe routines have returned.
When Ilona visited me, outside the cell, she said she was busy and we'll talk things over later.
When I tried to ask what had happened she just said that there had been some changes due to differences of opinion.
I have to say that I'm a bit confused and down right now. I think I've lost one important friend, I haven't heard from Nina all summer.
Erin is also distant, I can sometimes hear when she's here somewhere, in her own space. I've also seen her a few times but she doesn't contact me like she used to.
Something has happened but I don't know what.
Sorry to hear that, losing friends can really hurt, especially when there's no closure :/ Gaining new friends can be difficult too, even if you're able to go out and about freely. I hope your summer went alright despite this unfortunate development.
October
I haven't written here for a long time, there hasn't been anything major to report.
Life continues according to routine, as it always has before.
I have written less here because the Committee thinks I shouldn't write about negative things. They don't really limit my writing, but I listen to their opinions.
I also don't intend to upset those close to me.
It's "fall" here, which means I can wear my beloved leather clothes again, like long leather skirts and also a long leather coat when going out.
They belong to me and make me happy.
I think winter will come quickly this year because the summer was long and warm, although I'm not a weather forecaster we'll see what happens.
Real Restraints has been a diligent uploader of pictures to the forum, that's great!
I'm trying to get the pages "cleaned up" and improved for the better.
I have noticed that the Forum has a relatively high number of visitors but only a few are members. It doesn't bother me, but what is the reason for that?
I admit that my mind is still down, but life wins, I know that!
Dear Miisa,
It is great to see you posting again. I am glad you are back. Happy Fall and welcome back to your leather wardrobe.
Respectfully,
705
Dear Miisa,
I'm also happy to see you posting again. I've been lurking on the forums for a bit and I've been meaning to post more, but life has been a bit busy on my end. I'm trying to apply for grad school, but I'm doing it at a weird time and there's a lot of uncertainty in my near future.
That's why I kinda take comfort in this forum. The world around me may change, but this forum isn't going anywhere. At least I hope.
I'm really sorry to hear about Nina and Erin and Ilona. It's been extremely hard for me to accept when people start to drift apart. I think I've learned that even if the people you care about do start to become distant, that doesn't necessarily mean they don't care about you anymore. There will still be times when you get to catch up and things will feel like old times for a short while. And we just have to learn to appreciate those moments when they come around. But I wouldn't think of it as you've lost a friend. Not yet at least.
That said, I still have so much of this thread to catch up on. So if I am missing some important context, please let me know.
Thanks for your messages, it's always nice to get feedback even though I've been very quiet lately!
Ilona came to talk to me. She said that maybe the differences with Nina are getting resolved, it's possible that we can meet again in the future.
The Committee needs to think about how we can continue.
I still haven't received an explanation for what happened.
It's nice if I can meet Nina again and talk to her about my issues, I need that.
I've also received messages from the Forum's photo galleries.
Members (and other followers) like that Real Restraints shares photos with us.
One member thinks that AI photos take up too much space on the post...
I think they are photos among others, I have no reason to restrict them. Of course we can try to keep them in their own topic but sometimes it's hard. You'd have to be a detective to know how to tell a well-made AI photo from a real one!
...and yes, I will continue to organize the galleries as much as possible.
The number of visitors is already significant!
Thanks for your messages, it's always nice to get feedback even though I've been very quiet lately!
Ilona came to talk to me. She said that maybe the differences with Nina are getting resolved, it's possible that we can meet again in the future.
The Committee needs to think about how we can continue.
I still haven't received an explanation for what happened.
It's nice if I can meet Nina again and talk to her about my issues, I need that.I've also received messages from the Forum's photo galleries.
Members (and other followers) like that Real Restraints shares photos with us.
One member thinks that AI photos take up too much space on the post...
I think they are photos among others, I have no reason to restrict them. Of course we can try to keep them in their own topic but sometimes it's hard. You'd have to be a detective to know how to tell a well-made AI photo from a real one!...and yes, I will continue to organize the galleries as much as possible.
The number of visitors is already significant!
I'm glad you heard from Ilona. That's at least a step in the right direction.
I don't think the AI photos are a problem, they're just not my cup of tea. The context and logistics of a photo are important to me, and I feel like you lose that a bit with the AI photos.
I'm glad you heard from Ilona. That's at least a step in the right direction.
I don't think the AI photos are a problem, they're just not my cup of tea. The context and logistics of a photo are important to me, and I feel like you lose that a bit with the AI photos.
AI images are clearer but also exaggerated, they are not real, everyone knows that even though good AI images are difficult to recognize. In new images, you rarely see six fingers or twisted hands anymore, but eyes are obviously difficult for artificial intelligence to create
You have to remember that many "normal" images are also produced with entertainment in mind. They have a situation that is thought to be interesting to the viewer, they are not always natural and there is a lot of posing.
Documentary images of real events and situations are a different matter, they should not be confused with the AI world.
Real images always remain real, but good AI images still have their own entertainment value.
AI images are clearer but also exaggerated, they are not real, everyone knows that even though good AI images are difficult to recognize. In new images, you rarely see six fingers or twisted hands anymore, but eyes are obviously difficult for artificial intelligence to create
You have to remember that many "normal" images are also produced with entertainment in mind. They have a situation that is thought to be interesting to the viewer, they are not always natural and there is a lot of posing.
Documentary images of real events and situations are a different matter, they should not be confused with the AI world.
Real images always remain real, but good AI images still have their own entertainment value.
That's a good point, I hadn't thought about that. A lot of the stuff that grabs my attention is definitely produced or staged, so maybe I'm just picky lol.
It is incredible how good AI photos have gotten in such a short time. And the possibilities are truly endless, yet it all feels the same. I think that's why I don't enjoy AI content as much, but I can definitely see why others might.
Instead of making AI photos that are exaggerated, I would make a normal or candid looking photo and then try to craft a compelling or unique backstory for it. I haven't seen a whole lot of that, and I would try making it myself but those tools are expensive
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