Hello Miisa,
I've been following your story for quite some time, though I have kept silent until now. I draw scenes of wool bondage and captivity, probably a rather niche interest, but I was pleased to see you have included two of my drawings in your bondage drawings section of the forum.
There is a larger collection of them on my Flickr page:
Oompah's artwork album
Many of us have fantasies of being a long term captive, and of being kept bound in our favourite fetish wear, you are the only one I know of who has transformed the fantasy into a lifestyle choice. Speaking for myself, I would not wish for my fantasies to become real, at least not beyond a weekend vacation from normal life, and I admire your resolve in deciding to take that step. I have spent the odd night bound and hooded, but you are hooded and bound every night! It must take prodigious adaptability to accept that as normal everyday life.
I just read all the way through your life story so far. It may seem boring to you, but it reads as extraordinary to me! I hope we find out soon what happened to you in the care of Yuri, and how you ended up where you are now.
One thing above all concerns me about the choices you have made, and I'm sure you must have considered it too. Now you are a young woman, and for many years to come you will be of interest to the committee who are caring for your wellbeing, but will they still be as interested when you, and they, get older? Will a 60 year old woman in captivity still hold their attention in the way that a 30 year old would? I hope you have planned for the implications of full life imprisonment.
Best wishes from Oompah