I appreciate you engaging me on this.  I realize this is deeply personal, and it would be understandable to be wary of "oversharing".

One of my main problems is trust.  When you surrender power, you're trusting the other person to have your best interests in mind.  To balance mental health and needs against a dynamic.  Say for example I had a really bad day and the mental strain become too much, and I broke a.rule.  Does the dom keep.to the letter and punish me, maybe severly?  Do we adapt to a situation if we think a rule might cause harm, if strictly applied as agreed upon?  Nobody wants to see a sub bound and gagged to "cry out" a nervous breakdown, but it's scary tp imagine that this could happen, if you have a policy (E.g. a desire) of strictly being bound to rules, without room for evolving needs.

I read my own replies, and jfc do I sound like some bot or don't I?

That's just my wriiting style.  Can look kind of detatched to other people, I guess.

I've been reading your diary in reverse, haven't gotten to the super strict changes you touched upon, but when you mentioned some committee members regretting the whole operation, I.kind of cringed a little bit at what that meant.  I hope it wasn't as bad as it sounds.

Does your committee include a dedicated adcocate?  If membership is fluid, you can never really know if their values or interests align with yours, it might not be a bad idea to have someone who's job is to make sure the committee is doing theirs.  Just a thought.